Imagination: A profound thought for a barely 14-year-old girl

Listening to William reading my Hawaiian Dictionary and just laughing made me think since I am currently in a state of thinking since I couldn't go to sleep.

As he was laughing at random phrases just reading the dictionary in the order that the words came in, creating phrases that made sense in a nonsensical, insane way. I was lying in bed, attempting to get a little bit of sleep, I thought that he was stupid and immature and easily amused. Then I thought, how hypocritical, because I was probably like that at one point. Immediately following, came the thought about being innocently amused as a child. Everyone was like that, right? As we grow older, innocently amused turns into easily amused and we roll our eyes at immaturity.

Then I had this thought that I missed my imagination. Childish games like pretend when I used to believe I was an orphan, or a princess, stuff I thought was really fun. Now it would be weird to play like that nowadays, right?

This compelled me to xanga it since I had nothing to do. So here I am now, writing in my xanga, using it as an outlet for my energy. And now my train of thought has come to a sudden halt.

"A little nonsense now and then, is relished by the wisest men." - Willy Wonka (Gene Wilder)

A tad hypocritical?

People who criticize suck. Even though I can be critical at least when I criticize, it's funny.

To Ms. Skankwhore:

I ask you, please don't diss cheerleaders when YOU WANTED TO BE ONE!!! That is what really pisses me off. Please do not call cheerleaders preppy. Especially when you generalize ALL of us like that. There aren't any preppy cheerleaders in the first place. If there were preppy cheerleeaders I wouldn't be friends with them. I wouldn't be a cheerleader. We get our attention the positive way. You may not wanna hang with us cuz you think we're preppy but we don't wanna hang out with you because we know you are a slut...the end.

PreTeen Angst: Emo Rant #1

Why am I in such a sucky mood now? Is there something about nighttime and emo music that depresses me?

Oh I remember why... It's because I began thinking about being "beautiful" and nothing more

{He says "I like you as a friend"} There are no suckier words to hear when you feel for someone. I never expected or wanted more than that. I feel lucky enough that I was able to get his attention, but why do I feel hurt? He doesn't know how much the things he says hurts me. I wish I could say ((don't tell me that, don't say I'm pretty, or beautiful, or gorgeous. you're making me fall for you when you don't return the feeling)) Because they boost my ego for the moment but once I look back on it, it pains me. But if the words hurt so much why do I keep looking for them to be said to me? Why do I still talk to him when it hurts?

I need an actual guy to get my mind off all this confusing shit. It's just too bad that g u y s are d i p s h i t s

all I want
is to be just friends
understand and don't hate her
feelings change, no strength in me
im sorry, my love for you is gone
my love is gone