This Eyeliner Isn't for You

Thick black lines
Rims round my eyes
You aren't worth the cry
Just a waste of my time

So self-centered
You think this is all about you?
Do you even know me?
I've got tons of issues.

It's the least of my problems
Don't flatter yourself
In my library of life
You're on the bottom shelf.

I'll admit that I care
I can't change that fact
Your timing was bad
Straws have broken my back

Kiss and Pretend

You came to me out of nowhere
Caught off guard, caught by surprise
Never thought that I would
Catch on to someone so quick
Just by honesty I saw in their eyes

So we started out with nothing
Hanging out and having fun
Could have guessed we'd turn
Nothing into something so
Suddenly a story had begun

Oh I don't know
Where we stand
But if you can make a move
Then I can take a chance

We can kiss and make everything alright
I'm not gonna lie, It's what I want you to do
Or we can pretend like this never happened
Let's be just friends and I'll pretend it's all true

Three weeks, everyone was talking
Wouldn't admit, we couldn't commit
Didn't know how you'd feel about it
So I waited around for your final verdict

Meanwhile, I'd enjoy your smile
You made me laugh, you made me love
I'm going crazy while you get more amazing
I can't help it I just can't get enough

I really cannot tell you
Everything I want to
If I let my guard down
I'll get hurt, I'm afraid because

I don't know
Where we stand
But if you make a move
Then I'll take a chance

We can kiss and make everything alright
I'm not gonna lie, it's what I want you to do
Or we can pretend that this never happened
Let's be just friends and I'll pretend it's all true

If you make a move, then I'll take a chance (x2)

poseur-esque.net

If you've ever wondered whether you were fake
Chances are that you're living the lie
I'm sick of this scene but it won't let me out
Blame my self-doubt
Wanna curl up and die.

I wanna look in the mirror,
Decide it's not me
It's a disease.
Uncurable. Unshakable.
It spreads quicker and faster
Every trend, every fad,
Every snap crackle in pop culture
I'm watching it happen but I do nothing to stall.

Can't stand it
My jeans are pinching
I wanna take them off
But only for the next band member
That hops off that bus.

Monologue 001: A Rant for Karen

Natalie is a 16-year-old girl, wallflowering at her school dance. She is ranting to her friend Karen, upset about a debacle she just had with the boy she likes at the dance.

Natalie: How could he do that? Say that he wanted to dance with me and then avoid me the rest of the night? The worst part is that it didn't work and I found him, So of course he had to dance with me, only we didn't really dance, we just stood there staring at eachother awkwardly until I couldn't take it anymore and left, which is when I found you. Oh and you should have seen Megan too! She was looking at me like I was some lame joke! (pause) Well yeah I knew that, but he only went with Megan as friends!

Oh god now he's coming this way for some punch...why do you hang out by the punch bowl anyway? Oh god, he sees me doesn't he? I'm not upset enough to cry but I wish I was crying right now just to make him feel like a jerk. (beat) You know what? You're right! He is a jerk! Yeah I was upset but...now...now I'm just pissed!!! Why would someone lead another person on like that!?! He was trying to be NICE?!? If he wanted to be nice he could have done me a favor and just said no, instead of lying to me, getting my hopes up and then shattering them into little pieces! Oooh I am sooo over him!

(she begins to walk away, back toward the dance floor) Thanks for everything Karen, your pep talk helped so much that I'm going to go out there and start dancing again. Oh and by the way, I'm really sorry you got laryngitis, hope you get better soon!