Inspiration is Fleeting

I haven't been inspired. The last time I feel like I actually wrote something in here was in August back when I started this thing, and September was the last time there was an entry, all of those were pop-culture blogging related stuff. The last time I actually wrote something I would call "writing" was in January. 'Tis troubling.

• I miss the feeling of fingers vigorously pounding at clicking keys or hand cramps from pen haphazardly scratching against paper. 
• I miss feeling like thoughts are moving at a faster rate than I can record them. 
• I haven't contributed anything to the creative world in awhile and I have a problem with that. 

If I love writing and storytelling so much, what is inhibiting me from it now? It's even gone so far as caused me to question whether or not I'm going in the right direction. I haven't been excited to write, or emotional so that I had to write. Maybe I just haven't found a story worth telling?

Tomorrow I'm going on a quest to rekindle the fire. On the suggestion of a dear friend, I'm backtracking to remember why this is what I want to do in the first place. I'm going to go get and read Wish You Were Here by Leslie Simon and buy a new copy to re-read Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman. Two authors that made me want to become a music journalist in the first place. Finally, I'll cap it off with a viewing of Almost Famous a la Cameron Crowe. Maybe I can find myself somewhere in there while I'm at it.

Okay, too exhausted to even put some pj's on at this point. Good night. Tomorrow is full of hope and possibilities.

New Mission: Conquer John Cusack's Entire Film Resume

He's my favorite actor, so I don't see why I shouldn't make it a point to see every single one of his movies. His career spans two decades and it seems like I've watched a couple of clusters of his movies. I've got a lot of catching up to do.

Seen , Should Have Seen , Own

To explain the "should have seen" label, it basically means that I've had opportunities to see it but for one reason or another, did not.

Year	Film	Role
1983	Class	Roscoe Maibaum
1984	Sixteen Candles	Bryce
	Grandview, U.S.A.	Johnny Maine
1985	The Sure Thing	Walter (Gib) Gibson
	The Journey of Natty Gann	Harry
	Better Off Dead	Lane Meyer
1986	Stand by Me	Denny Lachance
	One Crazy Summer	Hoops McCann
1987	Hot Pursuit	Dan Bartlett
	Broadcast News	Angry Messenger
1988	Eight Men Out	George 'Buck' Weaver
	Tapeheads	Ivan Alexeev
1989	Elvis Stories	Corky
	Say Anything...	Lloyd Dobler
	Fat Man and Little Boy	Michael Merriman
1990	The Grifters	Roy Dillon
1991	True Colors	Peter Burton
1992	Shadows and Fog	Student Jack
	The Player	Self
	Bob Roberts	Cutting Edge Host
	Roadside Prophets	Caspar
1993	Map of the Human Heart	The Mapmaker
	Money for Nothing	Joey Coyle
1994	Floundering	JC
	Bullets Over Broadway	David Shayne
	The Road to Wellville	Charles Ossining
1996	City Hall	Deputy Mayor Kevin Calhoun
1997	Grosse Pointe Blank	Martin Q. Blank
	Con Air	U.S. Marshal Vince Larkin
	Anastasia	Dimitri
	Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil	John Kelso
1998	Chicago Cab	Scary man
	This Is My Father	Eddie Sharp, the Pilot
	The Thin Red Line	Capt. Gaff
1999	Pushing Tin	Nick Falzone
	Cradle Will Rock	Nelson Rockefeller
	Being John Malkovich	Craig Schwartz
	The Jack Bull	Myrl Redding
2000	High Fidelity	Rob Gordon
2001	America's Sweethearts	Eddie Thomas
	Serendipity	Jonathan Trager
2002	Max	Max Rothman
	Adaptation.	Himself
2003	Identity	Ed Dakota
	Breakfast With Hunter	Himself
	Runaway Jury	Nicholas Easter
2005	Must Love Dogs	Jake Anderson
	The Ice Harvest	Charlie Arglist
2006	Buy the Ticket, Take the Ride: Hunter S. Thompson on Film	Himself
	The Contract	Ray Keene
2007	Martian Child	David Gordon
	1408	Mike Enslin
	Grace Is Gone	Stanley Philipps
2008	War, Inc.	Brand Hauser
	Summerhood	Narrator
	Igor	Igor
2009	2012	Jackson Curtis
2010	Shanghai	Paul Soames
	The Factory	Mike Fletcher
	Hot Tub Time Machine

New Mission: Conquer EW's Top 50 Teen Movies

Entertainment Weekly's Top 50 High School Movies

Seen , Wanted to See Before This , Should Have Seen a Long Time Ago , Own

• Splendor in the Grass (1961) 
• Sixteen Candles (1984)
• Just One of the Guys (1985)
• Napoleon Dynamite (2004)
• Flirting (1992)
• My Bodyguard (1980)
• Can't Hardly Wait (1998)
• Stand and Deliver (1988)
• Fame (1980)
• Can't Buy Me Love (1987)
• Risky Business (1983)
• The Virgin Suicides (2000)
• Bye Bye Birdie (1963)
• Friday Night Lights (2004)
• Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (2005)
• Brick (2006)
• Get Real (1999)
• Hoop Dreams (1994)
• Scream (1996)
• The Karate Kid (1984)
• Bring it On (2000)
• Gregory's Girl (1982)
• Back to the Future (1985)
• To Sir, With Love (1967)
• Pretty in Pink (1986)
• Hoosiers (1986)
• Rushmore (1998)
• Cooley High (1975)
• American Pie (1999)
• Grease (1978)
• Dead Poets Society (1989)
• The Last Picture Show (1971)
• Rock 'n' Roll High School (1979)
• Peggy Sue Got Married (1986)
• Lucas (1986)
• Carrie (1976)
• Donnie Darko (2001)
• High School (1968)
• Mean Girls (2004)
• Say Anything (1989)
• Ferris Bueller's Day Off (1986)
  
• Election (1999)
  
• Boyz N the Hood (1991)
  
• Clueless (1995)
  
• American Graffiti (1973)
  
• Heathers (1988)
  
• Rebel Without a Cause (1955)
  
• Dazed and Confused (1933)
  
• Fast Times at Ridgemont High (1982)
  
• The Breakfast Club (1985)
  

Just under 50%....darn. There are a few here that I'm embarrassed to say I haven't seen yet.

I'm going to barf from all this anxiety eating.

Just failed at a phone interview for a staff writing position at Seattle University's newspaper, The Spectator. I want nothing more right now than to work for the school newspaper all four years of my college life. I hate phone interviews, I can't see or read the reactions of my interviewers.

I promise I'm WAY more charming in person!

I ate like a beast afterward; salmon pasta, tons of Doritos, banana nut mini muffin, can of Mug root beer. Nothing in my path was safe.

Verdict on Friday, I'm dreading it.
I never have enough confidence in the things that matter.