A Laundry List of Things That All Mean "I just don't like you that way."

Conversations
of you telling me we're just friends
They replay again and again
Why don't you tell me the whole truth
And not just lies you recite to convince you

That you don't want this, well
I guess you already did
I wanted to call out "That's bullshit"
But if that's the way you want it
Then that's the way it is

I'm not happy
With what you told me
But what can I do right now?
Except fake a smile, stick around for awhile
I'll have to deal with it all somehow

I keep telling
myself I'm over it
But the questions beg my mind
If I had done it a little differently
Would it have turned out right this time?

It's making me toss it's making me turn
I keep wondering and I yearn
Just to know what
it feels like
But to find out I'd have to fight

These feelings that I feel
I know they can't be real

I'm not happy
With what you told me
But what can I do right now?
Except fake a smile, stick around for awhile
I'll have to deal with it all somehow

You never let me get two words in
I'll be fine, just so you know, you win
It's not worth making bruises
Life's too short for people with excuses.

eclectic. enlightenment.

This was an english assignment. A found poem using the words of Henry David Thoreau.

eclectic. enlightenment.

fogs from frost in the spring

The gray color and ruinous state of the house and barn

Dilapidated fences, hollow apple trees

enjoy these advantages

I did not wish to live what was not life
Error upon Error, Clout upon Clout

life is frittered away by Detail
keep your accounts on your thumbnail

Clouds and Storms and Quicksands

all External and Superficial

It lives too fast.

How shall we get to heaven in season?

Tradition and conformity!

I do not wish to go

Castles in the air

That is where they should be

The true ethereal heaven

Light which puts out our eyes

Only that day dawns to which we are awake

There is more day to dawn.

The sun is but a morning star.

Francis's Song for Her

I don't wanna say goodbye
But you look like you have to go
Just pull the plug and fly away
And I'll hope to see you another day

One last look is all that I get
To say goodbye to you
I will miss the way you look at me
With your stubborn face
Lying there in satin lace
So I guess this is your resting place

So I'm taking the time to express
How I feel about letting you go
And let me jsut say that I can't stay
Because you're leaving today

This Eyeliner Isn't for You

Thick black lines
Rims round my eyes
You aren't worth the cry
Just a waste of my time

So self-centered
You think this is all about you?
Do you even know me?
I've got tons of issues.

It's the least of my problems
Don't flatter yourself
In my library of life
You're on the bottom shelf.

I'll admit that I care
I can't change that fact
Your timing was bad
Straws have broken my back