A Laundry List of Things That All Mean "I just don't like you that way."

Conversations
of you telling me we're just friends
They replay again and again
Why don't you tell me the whole truth
And not just lies you recite to convince you

That you don't want this, well
I guess you already did
I wanted to call out "That's bullshit"
But if that's the way you want it
Then that's the way it is

I'm not happy
With what you told me
But what can I do right now?
Except fake a smile, stick around for awhile
I'll have to deal with it all somehow

I keep telling
myself I'm over it
But the questions beg my mind
If I had done it a little differently
Would it have turned out right this time?

It's making me toss it's making me turn
I keep wondering and I yearn
Just to know what
it feels like
But to find out I'd have to fight

These feelings that I feel
I know they can't be real

I'm not happy
With what you told me
But what can I do right now?
Except fake a smile, stick around for awhile
I'll have to deal with it all somehow

You never let me get two words in
I'll be fine, just so you know, you win
It's not worth making bruises
Life's too short for people with excuses.